Still (a poem - 30 April 2006)

affected by reverse colonization disorder
another blow to my identity
my heart seeks refuge from the unease of a malaise
that's being in my own skin
a journey that's brought me
to a stationary position
where I stop playing hide & seek
from feeling justified through what I do
or feeling secured by who I am with
Now I am grown I need to know
when I am stripped of all the layers
activity
affection
appearance
affluence
I want what is left to be me
standing on a Rock
fully satisfied to know that I am
created, loved, redeemed, accompanied
forever
by the One who is eternal, faithful and loving
the One who calls me His daughter and His friend.